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Small World

May 7th, 2009 (11:02 am)
amused

current location: room
current mood: amused
current song: radio - Nirvana

So funny, when I was going off to Texas I got to chatting with some girls at the LAX airport. We were all going to the same city and all excited and ready for a big weekend. One gal was going there for the very first time. We all boarded the plane and went our separate ways.

Once back in SO CAL a month or so later I was at the 99-er, (99 cent) store and was browsing at the cheap DVD's when a gal comes up to me and says I met you somewhere, and we remembered each other from our LAX meeting. We recounted bits about Texas, she liked her trip but didn't fall in love with the city as I once had.

So again, just went back to life in LA LA Land. Then, last night as I was walking out of the Silent Movie Theater I again saw this girl, finally I got her name to set in my brain, she recognized me first. She and her guy friend had just seen the silent film I had watched too. It's just such a small world indeed, we decided to exchange emails and see where else we'd cross paths at. So funny huh!

Yup
Now I've got the tune to It's a Small World in my mind...SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL...

cahcat [userpic]

venting

May 3rd, 2009 (03:14 am)
confused
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current location: home
current mood: confused
current song: bat for lashes

since it's been here I've shared these most random thoughts I'm back posing another bit of randomness, or just rather commenting about an event that's not so major, ultimately, but did make me go WTF?

But it's those kind of what the hell out of the blue things that happen when things are just going how you want.

I'd say I had finally gotten back to "me" and happy about things, closed up certain chapters, tucked things away, nice and neat, back of on track.

then out of the blue, with no rhyme and reason I get a comment from the last person I'd expect on one of the social network spots I frequent.

ultimately it doesn't mean anything, but if contact is a real desire I feel it should have been done differently, a private message maybe, but then again, i don't think that he's really been good about dealing with these emotional things between us very well to begin with.

sigh. ugh...

no reply is my best move, but I just dislike that this rock got in the way to trip me and that I feel a need to dwell on it a bit.

analogies and all that just keep piling on.

silly cat, that's me. yup.

cahcat [userpic]

Time Flying By

April 16th, 2009 (11:18 am)
current location: home
current mood: awake
current song: random mix

What a difference 2 months make, how time just flies right by. Good times help you forget the muck and yuck feelings. With a little time you realize how good things are and that you're probably in right place. One weekend with celebrating good times really was refreshing and inspiring.

No "if only" or "coulda, woulda, shoulda" stuff because that doesn't take care of today.

Not working is nice, looking for work takes up a lot of time and trying to get through the on the phone to inquire about checks is quite ridiculous taking up even more time. It's annoying and distracting. Makes me antsy.

It's going to be nice to spend time in the theaters and be with friends and hopefully makes some new acquaintances, and then getting out of town will be even better to see my closest friends and watch more movies.

I'm happy, having some fun, just taking it easy. Slowly trying to break out of the mold and really try for something I keep saying I'll do and just don't. Writing with a friend, bouncing off ideas and working together might be the trick to really get the ball rolling.

Trying to rattle on and keep stuff all sorted out. Sending it out and thinking some more to keep focused on the big plans.

something like that. yup.

cahcat [userpic]

Funny I Guess

March 20th, 2009 (07:07 pm)
confused

current location: home
current mood: confused

So my phone was ringing and as I looked at the screen I saw that it was one of the last people I'd expect to be calling, a moment of disbelief and I answered and then as I said HELLO, HELLO there was no answer, I heard a cough and the radio, probably from a car. So it came to me the call was a mistake, and unknowingly made but a few more HELLOS were tossed out and I hung up.

But isn't it strange that just as the closure slowly begins to set in something like this would happen, sort of as if to say HAHA, you remember that thing that happened and how you felt...you still have those feelings pent up...

It all comes together on a sort of lazy day, But I made some good contacts, might have found something to keep me busy, but not really a job job, but I did get sort of organized and all from the comfort of home as I'm still in my PJ's.

Good thing I'll get myself out of the house tonight, even if it's not until the late night hour...

But man that was just weird and I got to shake it off...Perhaps a movie before the late movie is in order...something funny perhaps...

cahcat [userpic]

What a difference a week makes

February 20th, 2009 (12:57 pm)
sad

current location: work
current mood: sad

A week ago, it was excitement and giddy feelings...A week ago it was anticipation and fun...A week ago was a week ago.

Today it's sad, today it's just ok. Today is looking at tomorrow...

It was a brief moment and too brief at that quickly pushed into nothing more then a dream, a fantasy, just a memory.

I was pushed away so the other could run, and that's how I see it. To save from feeling anything more. How can it be so easy to shut the door? Close the chapter without more reflection.

I'll be reflecting, won't let it be in vain. Think all the happy thoughts I'm so prone to, but it's just a bit faded and faint right now. My fandom is on my sleeve, always has been, but my feelings closed up tight...

Life's too short, I still try and hold on to the good, and think the best of those that I know. I'm there for them, but it's back to me there for me...oh I'm depressed right now, and I just have to let that be.

Something like that...

cahcat [userpic]

Emotionally Spent

February 18th, 2009 (09:37 am)
sad
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current location: here
current mood: sad

So A great weekend followed by being laid off to be followed by a broken heart, and so it goes, so it goes. i'm confused and hurt and sad. He wants me to hate him and I'm not going to do that. People can be so mean and they think it's the right thing to be. I don't even know what I'm saying but what's done is done and I'm still here, I'm not done yet, that's for sure. I'm not giving up, and still moving forward. Change is still the word of the day. Yup Yup Yup. "That's the way it crumbles,...cookie wise."

cahcat [userpic]

what was that?

February 17th, 2009 (08:35 pm)
surprised
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current location: home
current mood: surprised

Looks like I'm hitting up the unemployment line, it's a bit strange and I feel a bit shell shocked. Can't say anything about what went down but I've been laid off and that's that. Crazy, woah. Time for something new, that much is sure, just not sure what...But change is the word of the day. And that's more then a little scary...but scary good, right? Right!

cahcat [userpic]

Texas Bound Weekend

February 12th, 2009 (04:37 pm)
anxious

current location: work
current mood: anxious

I'll be going down to Austin, Texas for the three day weekend. See a movie at the South Lamar Drafthouse and then see what else happens. I'm quite excited and lookin' forward to gettin' out town, as much as I love L.A., Austin is just AWESOME. I'm going be hangin out with someone pretty special and just can't wait to get there! Yup, that's the scoop, the simple scoop.

cahcat [userpic]

bumming before the movie

November 8th, 2008 (09:29 pm)
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current location: home
current mood: artistic
current song: soundtracks

tonight it's STEPFATHER on the big screen at the New Bev and I'm bumming around trying to catch up on my computer life...

Writing, listening to music and the tv is on mute as Dog Soldiers plays. I dig the hell out of this movie.

It's been a good day, joined my friend at a charity auction event, that had a fashion show of clothes from 1910 on to today, which ran a bit too long, but had a nice meal and it was good.

The end.

cahcat [userpic]

My BNAT costume

October 31st, 2008 (09:41 am)
amused

current location: work
current mood: amused

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